it is two in the morning, and yet it apparently seems like a good time to write an entry. at least i don't have to get up tomorrow morning -- a saturday and i don't have plans until the evening! it's a miracle. i have no idea what i will do during the day tomorrow. what a nice thing.
today i wore sandals and my long belt from the cool leather people and my tiered black skirt to hide and yet provide easy acess to the knee brace. my knee popped out of its socket (at a totally innocuous time!) on wednesday, so now i am wearing a brace and taking ibuprofen and not walking as much are normal for five days in the hopes that it will go back to normal. probably i will wear the brace while doing athletic-y things for awhile just for peace of mind, even if the weird soreness and wobbliness does go away.
i am being all social and stuff. i kind of hope it keeps up -- at least until i get through doing all these things involving people that i set up to do. because it would really suck to go totally anti-social in the middle of all this activity. would be typical, though. scary to think that my current plan is to go to 3 parties this weekend -- and there's a fourth i would have liked to go to if only it didn't conflict with two others. maybe if it goes late i'll swing by after the second one. total insanity.
finally finished _Hyperion_ by Dan Simmons. it was truly amazing. must read the sequels -- i've even heard that all of the ones so far are good.
also saw _Adaptation_ today, finally. loved it. wacky and surreal and fascinating. really really enjoyed it. so that means of the movies i've really wanted to see so far this year, i think i've seen all but one (_Catch Me If You Can_). i've seen _Chicago_, and _The Hours_, and _Far From Heaven_, and now _Adaptation_... they were all excellent, too. that pleases me. i regretfully admit that i kinda wanted to see _Two Weeks Notice_ and _Shanghai Knights_, too, but haven't gotten around to those guilty pleasures yet. i really wish i wanted to see _The Pianist_ and _Gangs of New York_ (and _The Quiet American_... and _About Schmidt_), but i just don't really seem to want to. i have lukewarm feelings about _Talk to Her_ as well -- i feel like i should see other Almodovar movies first, for context. i am sorely tempted by _Confessions of a Dangerous Mind_, too, if only for Sam Rockwell and Drew Barrymore. but really, when you think about it, Sam Rockwell and Drew Barrymore are two damn good reasons to see a movie. i'm also strangely interested in a few different documentaries -- _Rivers and Tides: Andrew Goldsworthy Working with Time_, _Lost in La Mancha_, and _Amandla! A Revolution in Four-Part Harmony_. i'm also really looking forward to _Laurel Canyon_ and _Down With Love_, and am tentatively interested in _Tears of the Sun_ and _Irreversible_ (maybe i just have a Monica Belluci thing?). argh! and i never did catch _Secretary_! must see that, gosh darn it. _About a Boy_, too.
man, i love movies. and that's just the list of *recent* movies i want to see. the list of classics i need to see is much much longer. and, of course, is nothing compared to the stacks and stacks and lists and lists of books i want to read. gah. too much cool shit, too little time.
and then there's music. bwahahahaha.
and you wonder why i never get a chance to clean my room.
i was brave earlier this week. i wonder if it will get me anywhere. i am tempted to be brave again, in a different direction, but i'm not sure it's a good idea. i think by the time the situation is such that i have to be brave, i'm already so freaked out and stilted that it's hard to make the bravery pay off. on the other hand, maybe the more i am brave, the less freaked out and stilted i will be. something to hope for.
you know, some days i really want to play Legends. and other days i know for a fact that i just don't have the time or the money. and yet, i am so very tempted. i hope they start holding boffer practice again soon, because i think that would be fun and a good way of finding out if i should really be doing this kind of thing or not. i mean, i know one can have non-combat characters, but i think i'd much rather be at least moderately comfortable with combat.
hmm. apparently this is the entry of randomness.
this past week was pretty good, despite the knee thing. 'ling was in town, and we had dim sum and crepes and then seafood and then we made food with peter and that was all nifty. and i actually got work done on the current chapter i'm working on, which makes me very very happy. because i was kinda stuck... but now i am not. i'm not convinced what i've done is good, exactly, but at least i've done it. and it means that next week my designer and photo researcher and i will have much more to work with. imperfect things to work with are a hell of a lot better than nothing to work with, at least in this case. i suppose it depends on the level of imperfection, though. we'll find out.
it just occurred to me that to be strictly accurate, i should probably say that this is *an* entry of randomness. i'm sure i have many other entries that are just as random. i wonder if this self-indulgently spewing journal writing has adversely affected my ability to write for an academic audience? you know, clearly and concisely and analytically. hmm. should probably work on that. somehow. what i really need is a really critical but inspiring humanities professor. i should really look into what class i might like to take this summer. and what other grad schools i might want to apply to. i still can't quite believe i'm doing this. oh, and i have to schedule a second (and final, i insist) taking of the GRE. am pissed i must take it again but i really do have to. current scores simply unacceptable. must work on having more vocabulary. perhaps trying to schedule it for a time other than 8:30 am would be helpful...
okay, it's now 3 am. definitely time to go to bed.