i haven't quite gotten over the annoyance yet. this has been haunting me since last tuesday. i want to be in High Society. i really want to be Liz, the reporter. really really want to. i want to sing that song, "He's a Right Guy" because it is perfect for me. it would be amazing. i know it. so i decided this after listening to the soundtrack last tuesday. so i go and look up the show dates and find out that fuck! i'm out of town for the first weekend of the show and the week and a half leading up to it -- that is, prod week. bad bad bad bad bad. and the thing is, i want to be Liz so badly that i would almost considering auditioning anyway and switching my vacation such that i hang out in MN before World Fantasy instead of after, except then i would have to explain to the casting people that i am only willing to make this sacrifice for Liz and no other part. and that's way incredibly presumptous. i mean, she's not the lead, she's only got 3 songs, but one of them is all by herself and so so so so cool. oh, it makes me mad that i don't get to do this. argh!
meanwhile, i played After the Fall this weekend. it didn't suck. some of it was fun. but it wasn't as fun as i wanted it to be. i had some problems staying in character, but in hindsight i have only myself to blame. my character, Dr. Zahra Malloy, PhD, was both too much like me and not enough like me. and quite frankly, whenever combat threatened, i dropped into SIK-game mode, which is all Jenwa-reaction, and i'm not sure i can help that. i spent way too much money on this game, though. i'm broke again. i have to stop spending money. it's incredible how irresponsible i get sometimes.
i am trying to decide what class i'm going to take this fall. problem is, i feel a little weird taking a partner dance class without a partner. and there's always tap again, which is even at a quasi-reasonable time. unlike the ballroom dance class i'd really want to take, which would cause me to have to move my mitsfs hours, which would be a bitch and a half. but i'd like some variety. and don't even get me started on the "real" classes i'd want to take. i could find almost nothing reasonable at the colleges around here. i have too many time requirements and conflicting topic desires. so i'm going to try to take the GRE this fall instead. assuming i get off my lazy bum and arrange it.
i am also currently trying to decide how many gaming runs is too many. right now i've just started a weekly Call of Cthulhu run, and am about to restart playing in a biweekly Exalted run. but the more i think about it, the more i think that i don't want to have two runs a week every other week, and one run a week on off weeks. that's just too many. and yet, and yet. i like seeing the people in the runs, and that's almost enough incentive to keep them... argh. but i really really need more time to do things like bum around and read and clean the house and shit. because i think my lack of helping around the house is getting on my housemates' nerves. and i can't really blame them. but i'm soooooo hideously busy that when i'm not busy, i'm exhausted and need the break from responsibility. it's horrible.
argh! the boston center for adult eduction dance classes have all either already started or overlap with my planned vacation such that i miss a quarter or a third of the classes. this is very very very very annoying.
god, i'm such a freak. who knew that one measy vacation would cause so many problems. now i know why most people take vacations during summer and winter holidays even if they're not in school. it's just more convenient to the rest of the world that way. gah.
okay, okay, done whining now. sorry 'bout this.